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Aug. 19th, 2006 10:45 pm
cuimhinliom: (serene)
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You Are The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed.
You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light.
You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two.
Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets.

Your fortune:

Something hidden, or latent, in your life is about to come forward.
You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination.
And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end.
You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

Date: 2006-08-20 06:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
Do you agree with it, your card?

Date: 2006-08-20 06:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
Part of it, I guess, or so She says.

The fortune part's a bit disturbinng. Me and my dark side aren't really friends.

How'd you feel about yours?

Date: 2006-08-20 06:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
The part that said I was pretty good at being full on crazy, and too emotional for my own good sometimes? I can see that.

I wasn't so thrilled about the part with my worst nightmares coming true?

Date: 2006-08-20 06:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
No.. I'd imagine not..

What are they?

Date: 2006-08-20 06:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
My worst nightmares?

Not having...control. Not like no one has control, but then sense that someone else has it that's not you. I still itch at the idea of portals. And now, mostly, it's the idea of leaving here as quickly as I came, without any sort of warning.

What's dark, or your side of things?

Date: 2006-08-20 06:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
Not having control is a terrifying thing, especially when it's your future, your hopes, your dreams that someone else is controlling..

The dark side...knowing I'm just one side of a coin.. Jealousy.. Possessiveness. The sure knowledge of being able to wrest control back, but knowing at the same time that to do so would be to resort to manipulation and emotional blackmail. Knowing what buttons to push on people and knowing how easy it would be to do. To change things.. To give in to fear and hate and vengeance.

I know how easily I could turn into her.. Into Fuamnach.

Date: 2006-08-20 06:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I know I'm not any different than anyone else. That I'm not the only one who's had control ripped away. But I can't seem to let the awareness of it go.

Not that I don't adore you just the way you are, because I do. And you'll forgive my curiosity I hope. But if you're so convinced the 'her' is that close to you, that it'd be that easy, what keeps you from letting it happen?

Date: 2006-08-20 04:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
I don't think you should. It's something that's good to remember, to be wary of.

There are days I don't know. Some days I think that at least then, I'd be free. But then I see how she's twisted and tainted everything good around her. And I look at my boys, and I can't let that be me.

Date: 2006-08-20 06:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
...free from what?

Those are good reasons though, for not letting go.

Date: 2006-08-20 08:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I don't know if that would make you free of her.

Date: 2006-08-21 12:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
If I could defeat her, it would.

Date: 2006-08-21 12:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
The darkness never helped her defeat you.

Date: 2006-08-21 12:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
I've never given in to it.

Date: 2006-08-21 12:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
And even still, you've been stronger than her without it.

Date: 2006-08-21 02:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
Stronger in what way?

ooc: went for walk.. Showering then will be back on AIM

Date: 2006-08-21 02:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
You've made it this far. You've got your family. You've stood your ground. We can start with any of those, if you'd like.

Good one? Frank and I picked at each other, then made up and watched Glory Road. He should know better when I am PMSing.

Date: 2006-08-21 03:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
She's killed me 26 times?

Date: 2006-08-21 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
But you're here, now. That means something. A lot of something.

Date: 2006-08-21 03:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
That she hasn't gotten around to it yet.

Date: 2006-08-21 03:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
Maybe it means that this time she can't.

Date: 2006-08-21 04:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I'll always take 'maybe' over 'maybe not'.

Date: 2006-08-21 08:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
I...

Usually so do I.

ooc: *g* I didn't remember which thread this one was. lol. Ignore earlier. that was the boy.

Date: 2006-08-21 01:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I know.

It's always harder looking at our own lives.

Date: 2006-08-21 02:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
It seems to be all we do now. Analyze mine to look for a way...

I just want it over. One way or the other.

Date: 2006-08-22 02:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I don't think anything is ever completely over.

Date: 2006-08-22 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I don't know if it's good, or bad, that I've accepted that.

Date: 2006-08-22 04:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
I still try to fight it.

Date: 2006-08-22 04:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_fredless/
I'm reminding myself that I can find comfort in it, with most things.

Date: 2006-08-22 04:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cuimhnigh.livejournal.com
That's a good thing.

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